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Identifying Who I Am As an Athlete: P. Mark Version 3.0

As I shared in my last blog, a lot of my efforts have shifted from running goals to bodybuilding goals.  As I have fully engaged in heavy lifting more frequently and long runs less frequently, inner conflicts began to surface.  I began to ponder…

  • Am I shifting just because I am getting older and slower? (I turn 52 tomorrow)
  • Should I focus on muscle measurements or strength goals as the primary target?
  • How does this effect my long-term participation in the local running community?

And…  For heaven’s sake!  Why is this question of athletic identity so important to me?

Athletic Identity

Let’s start with that last one. I am a father, grandfather, husband, Christian, professor, researcher, author, and so much more.  Why in the world does my athletic identity feel like such an important matter?

Certainly, it was absolutely critical to me in my teenage years.  I belonged to my church, my school, my cross country team, and my track team.  I had a place.  I had some personal success, but I scored points for the team.  So many teens feel lost.  I knew who I was.  The teen years were difficult, but running was part of what made them good for me.

When injury took me away from running, I let it go for nearly a quarter of a century.  I would lift weight periodically, but never with competition in mind.  I would go for runs, but almost always just to go relax.  There was no formal training or competition.  For about 24 years, my athletic identity was more like a relic of the past rather than a current need.  The glory days were gone.  I was doing important work in the field of education, in church, and serving my community.

Why, then, did the importance of athletic identity once again rise in importance?  Okay, so life did not go as planned.  Around 2008, I was trying harder than ever to make a difference and I got knocked on my butt.  My midlife attempts to save the world backfired.  At one moment in 2009, I was at the same kind of identity crisis as I was at a teen.  I knew I had a lot to offer the world.  Jesus was still my rock, but I was reeling with self-doubt and in need of some direction.  I had achieved great things up to this point, but I suddenly felt like I needed to re-establish my identity.

I responded to this identity crisis in many of the same ways as I had when I was a teenager.  I joined new groups, tried new relationships, but most importantly I started running again.  Not just running, but training.  I joined the Knoxville Track Club and started training and racing.  I did a half marathon, then a marathon… I eventually set my sites on qualifying for Boston.

My renewed identity as a runner was an important part of rebuilding my self-identity as a strong, capable person.  My new job a Carson-Newman University helped tremendously as well, but it was my running achievements that connected me back to that strong feeling of identity to which I clung as a teenager.  Here I was clinging to it just as strongly.  If my high school running identity was version 1.0, then my new running career started at 42 years old was “P. Mark 2.0”

I went on to achieve some pretty cool things.  I wasn’t world class, but I was the best runner I could be.  I also had the hardware to prove it in medals and trophies.

What happened to P. Mark version 2.0?

After I finished an Ironman, ran Boston a few times, and set a solid personal record in the marathon, I just sort of lost some steam.  I was training hard, but lacked the same intensity which developed this late-blooming athlete.  I had some extra duties and a packed personal life as well.  I was getting worn out.  I would set goals once in a while, but I never could stay focused on one goal long enough to achieve it.  I burned the candle at both ends until the fire went out.

To be honest, I was glad to let P. Mark 2.0 fizzle out.  I focused more on just doing the things I felt like doing.  By late 2018, I was still an okay runner by my own standards but I was getting more out of achieving weightlifting improvements.  I had no major goal to set my sites upon.

Why P. Mark version 3.0?

As I am writing this blog, it is finally dawning on me.  P. Mark version 3.0 is necessary.  It is only part of who I am.  It does not define me in any major way, but it is absolutely critical.  I realize that I always feel the most like myself when athletic endeavors are a part of my life.  It does not need to be running.  I am as happy going for a two hour swim as I am going for a two hour run.  I love to ride my mountain bike on the trails near our house in South Knoxville.

I feel joy when I lift hard, run hard, bike hard, and swim hard.  God has built it into my soul.  To deny my athletic identity is to deny a part of what God has designed.

Version 3.0 will simply have some tweaks.  Goal setting gives direction to the workouts. God gives me joy while I am working out.  I can set any goal I want and be happy with it.

For now, here is what I understand about P. Mark the athlete as of July 5, 2019:Kiawah 2018

  • I will continue to lift weight with specific goals of size for arms, legs, chest & back.
  • I will continue to focus my running on shorter distances for now (800 meters to 5K).
  • I will begin to build my bike power numbers to prepare for cycling and triathlon in the years to come.

In short, the distance runner in version 2.0 has been replaced by an athlete building power.

Although I anticipate a return to Ironman races in a year or two, I will not train long distance until that time comes.  I am a 52 year old athlete (as of tomorrow) who is building power for the next round.  That is who I am right now.

Blessings to you and yours,

P. Mark

 

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Because Today is Tomorrow

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I was going to start eating healthier tomorrow.  I waited so many days and it never was tomorrow until I got sick.  When I became very sick for very long, I went gluten-free and became healthy.  Unfortunately, I wasted 6 months of training as the doctors and I guessed at what might be wrong.  When I went gluten-free, I began eating simple whole foods for a long time.  I went from very sick to very healthy in a matter of weeks.

I knew that eating healthier was good for me, so why did I wait so long?  I was always planning on starting it on the same day, tomorrow.

The problem with tomorrow, is that it never arrives.  Each new day redefines tomorrow as the day after today.  Hence, all of my plans for tomorrow never seem to happen.

I planned to eat healthier and it did not happen until I was forced.

What other plans did I have for tomorrow?

  • I will lift weights for strength-training and health.  It will make me a better runner and a healthier person in general. I will definitely start tomorrow.
  • I will be more organized and get some writing done every day so I never fall behind again.  That is important for both my career and my hobby.  I will definitely start that tomorrow.
  • I will start to practice playing my bass guitar daily so that I can fill in on the worship team at church. I have a guitar.  I have the music.  I can play along with the songs on You-Tube.  All I have to do is get into the habit.  It is just that easy.  Tomorrow is a perfect day for that.

Waiting to start eating better cost me 6 months of training.  A lot of opportunity for progress was lost.  A lot of disappointment was gained.

REMEMBER THIS:

If you wait for the day when you have enough time, energy, and resources,
then you may never start.  The right time to start is now.

That being the case, I hit the gym and did some lifting that I have not done in a long time.  I also added some new lifts that will specifically make me a better runner.  It may not seem like much, but I lifted weights at the gym for an hour today.  I did it not just because it is good for me, but I did it because I said I would.

I also wrote this blog post and worked on my research project.  When I get home, I will practice on my bass guitar as I said I would

 I have decided that today is the tomorrow I was talking about.

Today IS tomorrow.  What are you supposed to be doing?

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“Train smart, eat well, & enjoy the run!” — P. Mark Taylor

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Check out these books by P. Mark Taylor for more advice on running:

The Gift of Running: A Book for Runners & Future Runners Wise Running Book COVER mockup

&

Wise Running: Thoughts on Running and Life

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